Life can be hard sometimes

Life can be hard at some times, that's just how it is. But whatever happens, I know that I've got friends that'll be there for me. Even when I don't see you, and at times when the phone's not ringing... I know they'll be there for me.

To be honest: I miss the feeling of being in love. In love. When you wake up and the first thing you think of is him, when you wait for him to come, when the whole world spins when you see him smile, when you lie awake thinking of what you ever did wrong, when you see bad things happening to him and you just wish you hadn't existed to see it. I miss be hopelessly devoted to someone.
       And friendship, that's love too, but different... I miss getting happy by just seeing someone. That feeling is so far away right now that I can't even really imagine it.

For the record - I did well today. I was really really tired, dead-tired, but I never acted tired, never complained. Everything I did, I don't regret. It was perfect! Still, there is always someone else that can destroy something, just by being tired, and - I can't believe I'm saying this - bad-behaved. Without meaning it people make each other need each other, and then they don't live up to the expectations. But it doesn't matter. Today is not over, today is forever. Today is eternity.


Even that feeling, I miss it, because it's beautiful!

Every story has two sides

The party monday night was great, kind of messy but to be honest: it was nice. And it only got better and better, and it actually led me to realize what I think about the people who where there.. So it was simply wonderful! But there are two sides of every story... the dark side of this one, is lies. Well-- it was worth it, and I don't regret it and it's not the first or the last time I'm doing this. Lying to ones parents? I mean come on, that's usual! And no, I'm not even feeling guilty! It's just that I realize that I have to make it up to them, and I'm not doing that right now. If I'm going to lie when I have to, then all the other time I have to make them happy.

This thing with starting to be honest and stop lying... It's not really working. Not that I've lied so much in school, don't think I have said something big or so, but I know some wrong stuff have slipped of my tongue so to say.. Not intentionally, and I think I've fixed most of them. However, that's how I am. Not really proud of it, but not ashamed either. That's how life goes at times, the important thing is to make the world a better place. Making people happier.

Don't misunderstand me, I don't lie a lot. I just do it sometimes! I've never lied to hurt someone, too. And another thing: I'm not depressed or sad right now, I'm not really very happy either because I'm thinking about this shit but I know it's gonna be fine. It's going to be great! 

L O V E

Maria

Autumn night

Memories of summertimes

Summer is wonderful thing. I miss the way you feel when your skin is all golden, miss the hot days, miss the way your head starts spinning because of the heat, miss the million ice-creams that never taste the same any other time, miss hanging with folks all the time. 

       Outside the wind is blowing, and I think it rained a bit earlier too. The air is clear, and cold. Autumn is here, in all its beauty. It really is beautiful, the dark red leaves on some trees, others still green, or with a orange fire licking the green leaves.. The raindrops in their total perfection. The sky in it's different shades... Gorgeous!

It's almost midnight, and even though I was dead-tired at seven p.m. -- now I just can't sleep! Although, while I write this, I feel sleep coming over me as the rain is starting to pour. Autumn is nightlife time, with disco's and parties, and it's just on the edge of beginning so hold on tight!

Life is like a thunderstorm: you can either be afraid of it or you can see the beauty

Goodnight!
Yours eternally,

Maria

 

You've got to relax. Think about nothing! I still don't relax totally, huh, weird... Gonna post some photos later, bye!

nej nej nej nej

Helvete. Eller, det var helvete, nu är det 'shit fan.. äh: TAGGA'. Vi sitter och kollar på film, och min morsa säger något halvskämt om att jag har celluliter. Mina tankar stannar. Automatiskt säger jag nej, klart jag inte har, och jag tycker fortfarande att det är klart jag inte har det...Men om hon tar fel på mina otränade muskler, så måste jag göra något åt min absoluta oträning. I ca tio minuter var jag inne i en livskris, jag satt och tecknade & pluggade franska verb så jag vänder på pappret och gör det till dagbok. Seriöst, ofta är bästa personen man kan vända sig till sig själv! När dem tio minuterna har gått lyser solen igen, I've got it. Det är helt logiskt! Jag har drömt om det innan, men vetat att det inte var för då. Men nu är tiden inne. Jag ska lära mig hip hop, på riktigt. Inte sådär halvt, utan totalt, med egna moves & ståpåhändergrejer och hela alltet. Träning börjar imorgon, men faaaaan vad det ska bli kul! Har velat detta så länge nu...

Allright, jag vet, det här inlägget är... illa. Det är sådär segt och jobbigt och utan sanna ord som beskriver verkliga känslor och på fel språk också, ha ha.. Men det här inlägget får vara såhär. Alla människor har dåliga dagar, en blogg kan väl få ha dåliga inlägg?

Nighty!
Maria

Shit -- I really miss our times.

It's been a beautiful day,

There's not much else I can say

hah it rhymed! Ciao =D

H A I R C U T

Allrighty! I've got myself a haircut todayyy! Met a really nice hairdresser, from Småland ha ha, with Rihanna-like cool hair...

Today's a sunny but rather cold day, and life's still a miracle because I'm really happy today (L)

Enough with the chit-chat, here's my new haircut! & if you don't see any difference, look at the previous pictures...

The pics are kinda flum, & not really good but my hair is today's photo-model!

Miss you guys, have the best friidadadayyyy ever!