Life can be hard sometimes

Life can be hard at some times, that's just how it is. But whatever happens, I know that I've got friends that'll be there for me. Even when I don't see you, and at times when the phone's not ringing... I know they'll be there for me.

To be honest: I miss the feeling of being in love. In love. When you wake up and the first thing you think of is him, when you wait for him to come, when the whole world spins when you see him smile, when you lie awake thinking of what you ever did wrong, when you see bad things happening to him and you just wish you hadn't existed to see it. I miss be hopelessly devoted to someone.
       And friendship, that's love too, but different... I miss getting happy by just seeing someone. That feeling is so far away right now that I can't even really imagine it.

For the record - I did well today. I was really really tired, dead-tired, but I never acted tired, never complained. Everything I did, I don't regret. It was perfect! Still, there is always someone else that can destroy something, just by being tired, and - I can't believe I'm saying this - bad-behaved. Without meaning it people make each other need each other, and then they don't live up to the expectations. But it doesn't matter. Today is not over, today is forever. Today is eternity.


Even that feeling, I miss it, because it's beautiful!