No matter what

I won't lie. Today was shit. On my way home form school I was like: "What the fuck Maria, you're not like that!? You are absolutely talk-active, never quiet and take contact with folks." Well, I did have contact with people... but as you know I don't really like the girls in my class. The boys are really great but do you want to know a secret? I didn't talk to any boy today. Not even one. & it was all my fault. Oh shit. From a, ehm, perspective today was a good day. But fuck we live now, right? So -- that shit was earlier today and now it's totally over. Definitely.
To get happy again took a dozen of wonderful songs and an ice-cream, although I wasn't unhappy when I was in school... maybe that's why I never did anything about it. I was quite satisfied with the situation. But hell, stop worrying, that was before, now is now and now is absolutely great! ha ha (L)
If I have any plans for monday? Well, I had. One my way home, when I was all sad and so. Now I don't. It's all about living now so hell with monday. Today is friday and friday I'm in love! Gosh I miss you guys..
See you 9/11 though! Now I'm off partying - the party of life! Good luck to you all with everything and have fun & be happy no matter what cuz we're forever together

Later

I'm sorry. It wasn't bad, not if you look at it the right way! I mean, it's all about ''you loving everybody and everybody loving you''. Haha, I change my mind all the time... But don't think I'm just laying on my bed and thinking of how this day was, watching the movie in slow motion - because I'm not. I just realize some things from time to time, you know?

Love