Life goes on

Vem har tänt den stjärna, som speglas i ditt öga..
Är du jordens dolda skatt?
Är det själva himlen som jag håller i min famn?

Well... the reason I started this post was because there's been one hour of today that I was thinking over way to many times. But the thing is that now that I'm writing, I've lost the need to express that - instead I've found things that I really want to say.

You have to know someone to really love them, because you love people for their mistakes and bad sides, not for the good ones. That's the reason why imperfection is beauty.


In over a month now I've woken up every morning thinking that today's the day that it's going to snow. But nah, it's the first of December on thursday and still there hasn't been any snow in Linköping... On the other hand, at my brothers place, in Luleå they had their first snow yesterday! Skylight gypsy as I am, I'm in love with this winter weather even though there ain't any snow. There's frost in the fresh air, it's been really windy some days now and though it's so cold, it's beautiful when the trees bow to the wind and then stand high and tall seconds later..

I wonder what shyness actually is. And I wonder if I am shy? I don't think so... I've been shy, and sometimes I get thrown back into it, but I'm not shy now I think... Want to know one of my bad sides?
I don't really accept the past. I stand for what I've done in a way, but I always think (and say) that what happened was weeks ago, it's not the same now, I've changed... I really mean it! I see the past as something...bad. Not that I've got so many bad memories, but my memory isn't so good ha ha.. No, seriously, it's more that I don't like what happened before. I don't appreciate it. Not at all!

Let me explain. It's like I can't see the past clearly. I remember how I though about things. I've learned a lot from what I've done, I even remember myself when I was really really small. I remember how I learned to walk! Honestly. But I don't like it. I can smile and I can laugh at memories, but I don't see the meaning in them. I don't love them, I'm not happy for them. I'm glad that they've made me for who I am today, but I want to change that me all the time you know?

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Trust your instincts, but believe the truth.

Don't think about it, just do it - think about the stuff you don't do.

The only way to escape your fears is to face them.

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There are a lot of people that have such a big place in my heart that are having a really tough time right now. And I mean it, a lot. I'm not going to write that it's sad. I'm only going to say that I love you all. And I hope with all my heart that things will turn out great for you. That the sun behind the clouds will come soon! Those who can do something about it, I know that you'll be able to do it. Those who can't, I know life will turn out just as it ought to. There's no use for me to say that I'm here for you - you already know that. I'm just going to wish you luck and say that it's all right to have bad times. 

Just keep trying. Keep wanting.

Keep believing.

Goodnight!