Hey, know what?

She's so fucking right, all the way!

snow -- now it's a week to x-mas

 Heey there! I'm not at all sure of who actually reads this blog, and in some way I hope it's only my three best friends.. haha, but I mean, it's the net, so it can be whoever.. I'm sitting in my bed, chilling with christmas music and thinking about all sort of stuff.. There's a lot of things to do but I've slept one and a half hour tonight so after cleaning some and helping out at home I decided to take it chill a while before I try some stuff with my new haircut, paint some, write some stuff and fix my blue jacket... If you wanna know hahaha! & also I just totally have to make a christmas playlist!! Really really... Yesterday I was at beccas place, hanging out all night with the girls, it was so fun!

Also, I have decided to start a serious blog. A blog I want people to read, just because I want to make a difference. It will be in swedish, though I don't think this blog will die for that, for me it's just a place to write down my thoughts when they don't have enough room in my head hah.

Wonderful winter to all of you,

Whodoyouthinkitis!?

The gang @ my place in August 2011

Ahahhhahahhahahahhahaha! Seriously: Jag älskar er tjejer! & saknar er som in i helvete...

Emotions for the worrrrrld!

Hahaha.. this is quite hilarious. While I was doing some research for a school-project in swedish, I found the solution to what I dislike in myself sometimes. Both the reason, and the solution! & I wanted to share and also remember it myself he he..

Having emotions. You know how people have totally blank faces while texting, watching TV or browsing the net? And at times, when you're tired or unsure, you don't show your emotions either, you don't even have any! It's like my father always saying that it's kind of useless to read a book or watch a movie if you don't ever discuss it or think it over - cause if you just live it through, you don't learn anything. That's why I always get so pissed of when I'm on the computer, or watch TV too long. It bores me, I get frustrated, I don't react normally I just go on like some kind of monkey... So, be emotional!!

Everything that's hard and tough makes you stronger.

Those who really mean a lot in your life, they are those who make you feel so emotional.

& Love is the strongest emotion of all,

the one that's got most power!

L O V E

--Maria

Life goes on

Vem har tänt den stjärna, som speglas i ditt öga..
Är du jordens dolda skatt?
Är det själva himlen som jag håller i min famn?

Well... the reason I started this post was because there's been one hour of today that I was thinking over way to many times. But the thing is that now that I'm writing, I've lost the need to express that - instead I've found things that I really want to say.

You have to know someone to really love them, because you love people for their mistakes and bad sides, not for the good ones. That's the reason why imperfection is beauty.


In over a month now I've woken up every morning thinking that today's the day that it's going to snow. But nah, it's the first of December on thursday and still there hasn't been any snow in Linköping... On the other hand, at my brothers place, in Luleå they had their first snow yesterday! Skylight gypsy as I am, I'm in love with this winter weather even though there ain't any snow. There's frost in the fresh air, it's been really windy some days now and though it's so cold, it's beautiful when the trees bow to the wind and then stand high and tall seconds later..

I wonder what shyness actually is. And I wonder if I am shy? I don't think so... I've been shy, and sometimes I get thrown back into it, but I'm not shy now I think... Want to know one of my bad sides?
I don't really accept the past. I stand for what I've done in a way, but I always think (and say) that what happened was weeks ago, it's not the same now, I've changed... I really mean it! I see the past as something...bad. Not that I've got so many bad memories, but my memory isn't so good ha ha.. No, seriously, it's more that I don't like what happened before. I don't appreciate it. Not at all!

Let me explain. It's like I can't see the past clearly. I remember how I though about things. I've learned a lot from what I've done, I even remember myself when I was really really small. I remember how I learned to walk! Honestly. But I don't like it. I can smile and I can laugh at memories, but I don't see the meaning in them. I don't love them, I'm not happy for them. I'm glad that they've made me for who I am today, but I want to change that me all the time you know?

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Trust your instincts, but believe the truth.

Don't think about it, just do it - think about the stuff you don't do.

The only way to escape your fears is to face them.

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There are a lot of people that have such a big place in my heart that are having a really tough time right now. And I mean it, a lot. I'm not going to write that it's sad. I'm only going to say that I love you all. And I hope with all my heart that things will turn out great for you. That the sun behind the clouds will come soon! Those who can do something about it, I know that you'll be able to do it. Those who can't, I know life will turn out just as it ought to. There's no use for me to say that I'm here for you - you already know that. I'm just going to wish you luck and say that it's all right to have bad times. 

Just keep trying. Keep wanting.

Keep believing.

Goodnight!

"When I fall in love it will be forever"

 What do you do when you've suddenly realized that you've hurt someone completely unintentionally? If you just know deep inside yourself that you love someone, and some days later you understand that someone loves you back -- and then you don't talk to the person that day and you can see how he isn't happy for it. But you realize that after really being able to do something about it.
    At the same time, you see that if you go on saying things the way you do, not thinking about how to say them, and then your voice becomes meaningful for people around you that don't actually know you so good that they know that you really really like them for who they are - and you start hurting people's feelings. That's not okay, that's something one has to change.
     Now think of that 'you' as me. Because that's the situation I'm in right now, and I have to admit that I kinda like it... Well, no, don't get me wrong -- I do not like hurting people's feelings. But it's nice in a way to have your voice heard. It's nice to be loved. It's wonderful to be loved. Although, when you have something you've got something you can loose, so you have to remember to still give all. You've gotta know that you can die any moment, there's no use being afraid.
     My next moves in life right now is: chill, don't be so hyper, so that the things I say don't hurt others and keep up facing my fears! Because that's the way you make your fears disappear..

Love,

Maria